I have fought a desire. Fought a dream. Fought a piece of life I knew I needed. Life not in abundance that I was use to but something I have only experienced in spurts. Spurts but choice.
Why knowing there was a treasure to be found would I avoid the map? He is my ultimate gift, my ultimate treasure. My map to Him according to my giftings. This doorway I have only accessed occasionally when seemingly forced by a gentle Spirit. The gently whisper, tug became a wave breaking against a heart of fear and a mind scattered.
I have been comfortable to leave certain life boats only to be found on another one. This one, I would not just step out but jump as I realize the danger is in the boat. A danger to my heart being free. Free to explore the map, to find my treasure, to express myself through the giftings He has placed in the depth of me.